ajdak

jusep‍pe kee door-door tak kaheen koee khabar naheen. main bhee jaane kahaan khoyaa huaa. bas pahaadon par daudee jaatee ek ghumaavadaar sadk hai, jis par dolatee jaatee ek khushagavaar kaar, usake bheetar antarng chuhal kaa sukhee parivaaree snsaar hai. saamane kee seet par dhahe, dubake, dare miyaan, aur s‍teeyaring ko snbhaale beevee baithee, peechhe kee seet par huddngee bach‍che, baar-baar kaar kee khidkee se aadhee deh baahar nikaalakar, diyar daid ke uch‍ch rak‍tachaap ko naee oonchaaiyon tak liye jaane kee sanasanee men nihaal, maalaamaal.

yaa kaun jaanataa hai, jaade kee is haad-bajaatee thnd men kaun kahaan pahaadee sadk par, jabaki ghar hee pahaadee baajaar banaa huaa ho, beevee s‍tov par pair giraaye taluon ko garamee de rahee hon, miyaan jee aaeene ke aage, bhaaree deh kee kamar kaa his‍se kaa kapadaa jaraa uthaaye, aaeene men dhnsaaye, ungaliyon se pet to-tatol rahe hon, pnjaa dabaakar jaise pet ke andar dabee kise gahare, aantarik dukh kaa bhed khol rahe hon? beevee jee kaa dimaag thnd men yoon hee jakadaa huaa, miyaan jee kee is toaa-toal‍lee men aur satakataa hai, ekadam chhootee tnj kaa teer maaratee hain, “tum dok‍tar ko k‍yon naheen dikhaate?”
“jaanatee ho k‍yon naheen dikhaataa fir bhee poochhatee ho. mujhe dar lagataa hai, suchitraa!”
“aur jab-tab tumako pet dabaate dekhatee rahoon, mujhe naheen lagataa? chalo, tum abhee jaao, fon karo dok‍tar ko?”
“fon kee baitaree lo hai tum‍hen bataayaa naheen? aur.. aur aaj vaise bhee mngal hai, k‍li‍nik bnd rahataa hai,”
“k‍li‍nik naheen tum‍haaraa dimaag bnd rahataa hai! hameshaa rahataa hai, sab tum‍haare sigaret kee vajah se hai, saat saal se kah rahee hoon chhod do, chhod do, magar tum kaise meree sunane lage?”
“bas karo, suchitraa, das dinon se pee rahaa hoon? ghar men dekhaa kaheen tumane sigaret..”
“tum‍haare munh men dekhaa thaa, abhee kal shaam ko hee get ke paas peete dekhaa thaa!”
“are, vo to pam‍maanee se lekar ek kash..”
“aur parason seedhi‍yon ke neeche kisase lekar kash le rahe the? tab to koee pam‍maanee ratanaanee naheen thaa tum‍haare saath?”
“tumase kisane kahaa? shuchi ne chugalee kee?”
“kee to galat karee? tum sudharoge naheen! fir mat ronaa ki dok‍tar ne lng kainsar daaig‍nos kiyaa?”
“dok‍tar jo karegaa baad men karoge, tum karo ki is tarah kee baaten bolakar, daraake yaheen meree jaan le lo! isee dar se dok‍tar ke yahaan naheen jaataa magar ghar men bhee kaise ho sakataa hai ki tum mujhe chain se rahane do?”
“main tum‍hen chain se naheen rahane de rahee? main tum‍haare pet men pnje dabaa rahee hoon?”
“dard kar rahaa hai to n dabaaoon?”
“lekin sigaret peenaa n chhodoon? bhale pooree duniyaa ke aage jhooth bolate firo ki kitanaa mujhako p‍yaar karate ho, bach‍chon ko karate ho..”
“k‍yaa matalab, naheen karataa?”
“sigaret ko j‍yaadaa karate ho. aur aisee hee bechainee hai to jaao, baatharum men jaakar jo karanaa hai, karo, mere saamane ab ye pet mat dabaao!”
“to pet dabaane ke lie baatharum jaaoon, tum meraa pet dabaanaa tak naheen dekh sakatee?”
“haan, naheen sakatee.”
“mainne tumase kabhee kahaa ye mat karo vo mat karo? chhote baal katavaa rakhe hain, baaees saal kee umr se s‍leevales pahanatee ho, jaade men bhee pahanatee ho, kabhee mainne manaa kiyaa?”
“tumane naheen kiyaa to main bhee n karun? tumako naheen hogee, mujhe paravaah hai, main tumase p‍yaar karatee hoon, tum karate ho?”
“to ab ye bhee tum‍hen bataane kee jrurat hogee?”
“tum‍hen yaad bhee hai laas‍t taaeem kab bataayaa thaa?”
“k‍yaa bataanaa thaa?”
“yahee ki mujhe p‍yaar karate ho, eediyat?”
“k‍yaa matalab, naheen karataa, aisaa kah rahee ho?”
“bnd karo apanaa bhen-bhen, tumase kuchh bhee kahanaa bekaar hai. pataa naheen tum‍haaree akal kahaan rahatee hai,”
“kahaan rahatee hai?”
“main k‍yaa bataaoongee, jaao daak‍tar ke paas, vahee bataaegaa dimaag kaa kainsar hai!”
“ek taraf kahatee ho p‍yaar karatee hoon aur paanch-paanch minat men meree or kainsar thel rahee ho, kitanee mamataa hai tum‍haare andar!”
“mamataa ke lie mere do bach‍che hain.”
“aur main naheen hoon? main fir kisake saath hoon, kahaan hoon?”
“sigaret ke saath naheen ho? jaao, seedhee ke neeche jaake teen kash kheench aao, fir dukhee hokar lautanaa, tum‍haaree kahaanee sunoongee kitanaa pet dard kar rahaa hai! dedh ghnte fir aaeene ke saamane khade jokaron kee tarah khujaate rahanaa, main dekhakar dhan‍y hotee rahoongee? ho sakataa hai isee tarah meree kis‍mat men likhaa ho, dekhane kaa kainsar, main chhoot jaaoon, tum‍haaraa sigaret thodee chhootegaa?”
“aaee lav yoo,”
“kise kah rahe ho, mujhe yaa sigaret ko?”