chalie ...jmee par khudaa dhoondhte hai !!!

main... ek din kuchh apanee jindagee se pareshaan ...apanee kismat kaa hisaab kitaab kar rahaa thaa , hazaaro savaal mere ird gird ghoom rahe the aur mujhe chidhaa rahe the baar baar mujhase ye kahate ...aakhir main hee kyoon ? hameshaa mere saath hee aisaa kyoon hotaa hai ? ye takaleefen ye museebate hameshaa mujhapar hee kyoon aatee hai ? isee tarah ke hazaaro savaal meree becheniyon ko aur bhee badhaa rahe the ,savaal jo kabhee thamane kaa naam hee naheen le rahe the ?...aur javaab jo mujhase koso door the ...kaheen sunaa thaa ke khudaa to har jagah hai to lagaa ke jmee par khudaa dhoondhte hai ....

abhee bas chalanaa shuroo kiyaa hee thaa ke achaanak nazar us jagah par padee jahaan kabhee doston kee mahafile sajaa karatee thee , usee jagah ek dost bhee milaa musaafiron kee tarah ...mulaakaat bahut dinon ke baad thee shaayad isalie milanasaaree bhee kuchh kam naheen thee , mainne usakaa haal chaal jaanaa aur apanaa bhee bataayaa ...kuchh haalaat munaasib naheen hai kuchh pareshaan saa hoon ...usane saaree baaten sunakar mujhase kahaa ...fikar mat kar yaar ...ek din sab theek ho jaaegaa ...bhagavan sab theek kar degaa ...usake paas naa hee mere koee savaalon kaa javaab thaa aur naa hee meree kisee pareshaaniyon kaa koee hal ...lekin fir bhee usakee baat mujhe sukoon pahunchaa rahee thee ...shaayad vo jo kah rahaa hai vaisaa hee kuchh ho ?....thodee see ummeed lie main apanee agalee mnjil kee taraf chal nikalaa ...

safar to lnbaa thaa lekin pareshaaniyaan bhee saath chal rahee thee ...thodee door tak chalane ke baad ,meree yaamaahaa khraab ho gaee , kuchh door dhakkaa dene ke baad mujhe ek bord dikhaa { satapaal sarvising sentar } likhaa thaa ... hamaare yahaan ॥hondaa yaamaahaa skootar theek kiyaa jaataa hai mainne use pareshaanee bataaee aur baaik banavaa kar chal diyaa ...dhup thodee badh rahee thee ...galaa bhee sookh rahaa thaa ...sadak par hee ek ganne ke ras kee dukaan thee { bajarng gannaa ras } ek gilaas peene par gale ko badaa hee sukoon milaa ...lekin main thodaa jaldee men thaa ...main vahaan se chalaa gayaa ...jis kaam se aayaa hoon vo to abhee tak puraa huaa naheen hai ...chaloon apanee talaash jaaree rakhoon ...

shaam hote hote main kuchh naaumeed saa hone lagaa , main jisakee talaash men nikalaa hoon vo to mujhe kaheen naheen milaa ...subah se shaam hone ko hai , savaal fir se the kyaa main fizool mahanat kar rahaa hoon kuchh naheen milanaa julanaa hai ...sadk ke paas apanee baaik khadaa kar ke baithaa rahaa ...sadak par sanasanaatee bhaagatee gaadiyaan aur haarn kee tej aavaaz ... thodee der baad mainne apane doston se fon par baat kee aur unhen apane paas bulaayaa ...shiv to aa gayaa lekin khomendr ko aane men vakt lagaa ॥use aofis men kuchh ziyaadaa kaam thaa ...main aur shiv aapas men baat karate rahe ॥isee beech mainne apanee aofis se jude kuchh kaam use bataaye aur usane use muskuraate hue karane kee baat kahee ...mujhe thodaa kaa sooku aur milaa unakaa javaab sunakar ...khomendr bhee apane kaam se kuchh pareshaan thaa vo mujhe apanee pareshaaniyaan bataa rahaa thaa ...mainne use sab theek hone kaa bharosaa diyaa aur raat hone kaa havaalaa dekar sab apane apane ghar aa gae !

raat thodee ziyaadaa hone kee vajah se ghar kee laait bnd ho gaee thee ॥mujhe lagaa sab so rahe hai ...lekin aisaa naheen thaa meree aahat sunakar ammee aur abboo jaag gae shaayad vo soye hee naheen the ...vo meraa intajaar kar rahe the ...mere kamare men aakar abboo ne puchhaa ...anavar too aa gayaa ..main ...haan ... tab hee ammee kee aavaaj aaee ..khaanaa likaal doon ... main ..haan ...khaanaa khaa lene ke baad bistar par lete hue sochataa rahaa ...aakhir khudaa hai kahaan ? ....is jmee par usake naam kaee hai koee khudaa kahataa hai to koee bhagavaan koee rab ...to koee aur kuchh kahataa hai lekin vo hai kahaan jise main din bhar dhoondhataa rahaa vo is zameen par hai bhee yaa naheen ???....thodee der sochane par mujhe isakaa javaab mil gayaa !!!